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I had a great time with History Exchange 2016, but it occurred to me even while I was writing for it that I was putting a great deal of energy and time into an endeavor that, practically speaking, had no immediate benefits for me other than personal enjoyment. I spent a lot of time on the Web and pulled a dozen books from the stacks at my school library for research, and even bought a book that my library didn't carry. (No regrets though, it was awesome in its own right.) All this for writing that I would not see one red cent for! Economically speaking, this is madness. I guess that's how hobbies work, though.
Beyond just spending spare time, though, I find myself always figuring writing time into my future plans. I mean, I became a lawyer on the hope that it would give me the financial security and spare time to write, though things didn't quite work out that way. My change in course to academics, while in keeping with my aptitude, was also driven by my constant need to leave some room in my life to write while making a living on the side. In a way it's working out so far: I don't make much money but I do make a decent living while having the flexibility to pursue my impractical passion. As my responsibilities grow, though, I'm going to have to make further choices, and I have a feeling I'll always hold back a part of me to have that space where I can keep writing.
Do you find yourself holding back or making sacrifices, whether of time, money, opportunity and so on, in order to write? Do you think you might do so in the future?
Beyond just spending spare time, though, I find myself always figuring writing time into my future plans. I mean, I became a lawyer on the hope that it would give me the financial security and spare time to write, though things didn't quite work out that way. My change in course to academics, while in keeping with my aptitude, was also driven by my constant need to leave some room in my life to write while making a living on the side. In a way it's working out so far: I don't make much money but I do make a decent living while having the flexibility to pursue my impractical passion. As my responsibilities grow, though, I'm going to have to make further choices, and I have a feeling I'll always hold back a part of me to have that space where I can keep writing.
Do you find yourself holding back or making sacrifices, whether of time, money, opportunity and so on, in order to write? Do you think you might do so in the future?
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Date: 2016-07-24 11:54 pm (UTC)I think I'm still caught in that mindset of sacrificing writing first because it's "play time" and I "should" do more practical things first. I would find every excuse NOT to write because it was my own personal thing and I always put myself and my dreams on the back burner for so many years. I listened to too many people for too long, telling me that writing was a waste of time/money/energy and that I should be doing something more worthwhile/practical.
I keep a journal now though, with daily writing (even when it's 3am and I can hardly stay awake) but it's non-negotiable. The journal happens every day, no matter where I am, no matter how packed the day was. I used to only write original fiction because that was what would have the chance at earning money. But again, it felt like I was being driven by practicality only and things would start to drag a bit because I was so focused on "market market market."
This year, I said "Screw it" and I'm writing whatever I want, fanfiction, original, journal, whatever. I'm solely pursuing the craft and the joy of it. It can be a little unnerving sometimes because I had Big Plans for publishing X amount of stories in X amount of time, but I'm really loving writing right now and that's all I care about.
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